tilt and shift

As a child I spent a lot of time on my back: trying to feel the motion of the earth (and I did, I swear), watching the patterns of clouds, and pretending that the ceiling was actually the floor and imagining how life would be different in that scenario. I feel like I need a little of that altered perspective this week. Life is shifting but how it is changing is as subtle as sensing the tilt and rotation of the earth through one's skin. Perhaps that explains my recent preoccupation with photos of the world upside-down and reflected; a sort of modern day reading of runes.

When I sat down to write this post this morning I had a different one in mind. That little paragraph above is where I got to before it started to go awry. As I wrote it became clear to me (and maybe that's why I write here) that looking for signs in cups and mirrors and clouds is an evasion. I had an image of myself lost in a forest, waiting for someone to come along and show me which way to go. As I pictured myself just sitting there, waiting for the all-knowing 'someone' to direct me, I realised that's how I've been acting in regard to my own life. Waiting for a sign that it's time to act; for 'someone' to show me what to do.

Chastened, I stepped away from my laptop and put on a pot of coffee (default delaying tactic). As I waited, I flicked through one of the A4 plastic-sleeved folders in which I file snippets that inspire me. I stopped at an article by American writer Anne Lamott. I attended a couple of her readings in the mid-nineties while I was living near San Francisco and enjoyed her dry humour and commitment to her writing life. So I paused to re-read it. Another blow to the heart. She wrote about making time to do what you most value. I realise I have time but I don't use it to do what I most value. It's as simple as that. I don't do enough of what I most value and I wait rather than act. When I sat down this morning I wanted a shift in perspective and I've got it; just not in the way I expected. Time to get walking.

All your life, you wait for the propitious time.

Then the propitious time

reveals itself as action taken

 (Louise Glück 'Landscape' Averno)

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Reader Comments (6)

I too, sometimes wait. I love the reminders you've shared to go and do. Thank you for sharing.
November 11, 2011 | Unregistered Commenteralexandria
thank you alexandria for making me see that I'm not the only one! I appreciate your words. boots, keep walking..
November 12, 2011 | Registered Commenterlittle house
Wow. This post spoke to me more than you'll ever know. And I too love that Anne Lamott article. I hope you are doing something special and smiling.
November 13, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterDenise | Chez Danisse
Denise, today has been a good day with warm sun and smiles. I hope the same goes for you!
November 13, 2011 | Registered Commenterlittle house
what a wonderful post Kate and a great change in perspective... writing is so very cathartic. i often feel that we are led to where we need to go, & just your little ask, your want to seee more clearly was answered by the universe... a lovely realisation.. now onto action & following that which oyu most enjoy and value. x
will be in touch soon x
November 22, 2011 | Unregistered Commenterginny
Oh, yes indeed. What a wonderful post -- you're so right, of course, although in this moment the thing I most want to do I am doing: sitting at my desk, the dark settling outside and your images of reflection on my screen.

Just beautiful.
January 6, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterAnna

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